Last chapter, last page, last 2012.

Ending my 2012 morning with my beloved badminton team. Thank you for all the memories you had given me. All my seniors, juniors, teachers as well as coaches. Everyone of you played a part in making my experience in Bowen a really memorable & meaningful one. I'm really thankful to those who never fails to make me laugh like a crazy ass. Well, I got to admit. I'm a cheerful girl, yet I'm an emotional one too. Besides every cheerful girl, comes a story that made her so cheerful. Well, partly because of the team as well. Indeed, sometimes I felt really stress because I felt like a burden in this team. I've never really play my part though. All those achievements, apparently, I've done nothing to achieve that. There was a time this year, I wasn't in good terms with my B Division girls. I distanced myself from them. What exactly happen? All because of my sensitive character. Being too sensitive ain't a good thing. It was kind of serious that it started involving the teachers as well as the coach. But after talking things out & clearing those misunderstandings, we're back to normal, which is definitely a good thing.


After this incident, I realized how important my teammates are. Without them, I'm basically nothing. They are reason why I'm always smiling. ;) after the competition, started to concentrate on my studies as my N's approaching. After my N's, started to bond with my juniors & that's definitely a happy thing. They are the ones whom I can really be crazy with & noisy with. Yes, they do judge me SOMETIMES. Haha. But, they're still the best. Love them! :*

Sec 5 : ChengYi
Hey dear! Thanks for being such a good senior for the past 4 years. I've learnt alot from you & you're really nice to bully at times. Haha. It was a great opportunity to partner you for 2 years. But I'm really sorry. It's all because of me that's why we can't win those important matches. I'm really sorry. You've been a great partner be it teaching me what to do & also, by encouraging me. This year, we started to become close. We meet every morning, chit chat, go for lessons, recess sit down chit chat, off for lessons, lunch break sit down chit chat, off for afternoon lessons & off for dinner. I've to admit, we came really close after all this. You never fails to entertain us & keep us laughing. Haha. ^^ whatever it is, I wanna thank you for all the things you've done & let's keep in contact! :*

My experience.

Well, it's already 30th December 2012. Tomorrow would be 31st December 2012, which also means my last official training with Bowen badminton team. Well, it has been a meaningful journey with Bowen badminton during my secondary school experience.

Q. Well, why did I join badminton?
A. At that time, I wanted to join dance as I'm a Chinese dancer when I was in primary school. I wanted to join dance without costumes but apparently, all the dance need to wear costume. When I heard that there's badminton trial, I went to give it a try. I'm selected & I'm quite interested in it. So I decided to join badminton because I wanted to lose weight & since I'm interested in badminton, I joined this team in year 2009. I remember the FIRST training I had with Bowen badminton team was physical training at the school field. We did physical training instead of badminton training. Well, I can still remember vividly what we did. We did push-ups, sit-ups, running & sprinting. It was a tiring experience. SECOND training, before we start training, we did warm up, agilities & foot work. We didn't have a chance to step onto the court until end of June. From January to June, we did arm swing on the stage. 100 times. I miss that. I really miss that. Next thing that I remember clearly, badminton camp 2009. In the morning, we meet in the school hall. Put our stuff on the stage & started playing bonding games in the hall. I really enjoy myself during that camp. Next, we got to eat sour fruits : Lemon, lime, orange, apple. Water games. Ah. This memories. Next, 2010. 1st ever zonal I experienced. Though we did not win anything, but it's okay. At least I know we bond because of those competitions. Next, 3D2N KL overseas learning journey. Had lots of fun during that trip. Badminton camp. Another memorable event. 2011? Well, start of our B division zonal. Got top 4 & we started singing. All those laughters we had in the bus. Next up, 7D6N chengdu trip. Thank you to those lovable girls for celebrating my birthday there. It's really a memorable birthday for me. All those shopping, trainings, definitely bond us together. Camp? We, sec 3s planned it. Hehe. It was a fun & memorable camp. 2012? B division zonals & we got top 4 as well. & I got to apologize to the whole team for losing my match. I'm really sorry. I didn't play a part in getting top 4 though. I don't deserve that medal though. I'm really sorry. 5D4N Bangkok trip has been a really memorable trip as well. This trip indeed bond my juniors & I together. & I'm really thankful for this trip. Next, camp. This camp is definitely another memorable one with my group 1. My group is the best group ever & even know, we're still bonding. Thank you all for your memories!

Inspirational people ;
Mr Kevin Lim.
; A really good badminton teacher. He never fails to motivate his students.
Mr lim, haven't got to thank you. Well, I'm really thankful for having you as my badminton teacher for the past 3 years. Perhaps you think that you never really change me, but the truth is, you did. Firstly, let's talk about boy craziness. I'm less crazy over boys. I'm saying the truth uh. After what you told me last year, I came to realized, friends are more important to me. Secondly, thanks for helping me with physics last year. It really helped me alot & I really appreciate your help. Thirdly, badminton. I know I ain't good in badminton, apparently, I ain't good in anything. I'm sorry for disappointing you this year as well as last year. I'm really sorry. I give up easily, I'm very emotional. Thank you for not giving up on me even though I'm very noisy, irritating, annoying & lousy uh. Thank you for being such a nice teacher & thank you for making my experience in Bowen a really memorable & meaningful one. Thank you!

Mr Izwan.
; My coach for 4 years. Thank you Mr Izwan. I remembered that when I got into this team, you're the one who coaches the sec 1 girls. Thank you for teaching me all th skills & thank you for encouraging us! I really appreciate your presence. It has been a joy in badminton team & thank you for not giving up on me no matter how lousy I am. I'm really sorry for disappointing to you. I'm really sorry & it's a really sad thing that you're leaving this team. You've contributed alot to thistean & we thank you for that. All the best in your future & do visit us as & when you're free alrights! We are so gonna miss you!!!

Aimless.

Well, seems long since I've updated my blog isn't it? Alright. Shall start blogging. Well, where should I start? I shall start no where & start aimlessly. Well, it has been a stressful week. But today was a great day with my girls. Really appreciate their presence in my life. Though we only know each other for 3 years (JJ&CY) & 4 years, best friend, but there's lot of memories for the past few years. They never fails to make my day, never fails to bring a smile to my face & never fails to cheer me up. They are definitely my besties in secondary school as well as the team. I've learnt quite alot from them though. Of cause the good ones. Haha. I know we will definitely drift, but still, there's always ways to stop us from drifting isn't it? Meet ups/ phone calls/ texts/ twitter & more. Well, when i was a primary 6 student, I cried because of friendships. They don't want to be friends with me because I talked to our "so-call enemy". I cried & Mdm Tee told me, apparently, the one who follow you through your life are your friends in secondary school, poly/JC. I don't believe at that time. But after spending my 4 years in Bowen, I believe this sentence. They really made a great impact in my life. They've made me a better person & I'm really thankful for them. Pictures shall do the talking now. Anyway, went out with the girls today to celebrate an advanced birthday for CY. Had Chicken Pot for lunch & went to take Polaroid! Hehe. Today is indeed enjoyable yet a tiring day. Nothing will change the importance of them in my life. N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

Truth post.

Frankly speaking, I'm not pretty. I don't have hourglass figure. I don't have sweet voice. I don't have beautiful features. I don't have long skinny legs. I'm fat. I'm short. But I'm still me.

Well, it's true that unless you're pretty or dead, or else no one would care. But does that apply to your parents? Your grandparents? Your cousins? Your uncles & aunts? No. They will definitely be there fr you. They don't care about your looks. Th one they care is kinship. Cherish your family members because they will be there fr you whenever you need someone to talk to. Perhaps, it's rather difficult to talk to them but you got to know, no matter what, they will still be there fr you.

Mother :
Th one that carry us fr 10 months in her womb, without complaining anything. She risk her life just to give birth to us. She got to endure th pain alone. They got th rights to actually scold us. Yes, indeed. There are times whereby we talk back to her, shout at her, lose our temper at her. But feel in our heart, we still love her. Love your mother. Without her, there wouldn't be you. To be frank, I do lose my temper at her, I do talk back to her. But I calmed down. I realized I'm at fault. No matter, we shouldn't raise our voice or lose our temper at our mum. They don't deserve this. Imagine how much pain she had undergone just to give birth to us, yet they didn't complain.

Reminiscing.

Well, it's gonna be th end of th week. Let's sum up th week with this post & perhaps th post tomorrow? (: well, this week was alright just that I'm a lil sad here & there. But well, give me sometime & I would be alright. (: Okay. That's really besides th point. Had training on Monday in school, Tuesday & Thursday @ Sengkang Sports Hall. Well, trainings were alright too though I always whine about physicals. Dinner with Mr Lim, ChengYi, Ashly, Durene & Kearny @ Compass Point's Seoul Garden & we started reminiscing. All those memories. Haha.

Sometimes, it's really easy to know who really cares about you. Whenever you're down, he/she will definitely give you a text & ask how are you. & they will definitely encourage & motivate you to be better.

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Nothing but a burden.

Well, I'm feeling rather mood-less. Well, to start off, it's related to my cca. So I shall start thn. I've always been a burden to my team. I've never contributed anything to this team ever since I joined badminton. Not only I'm a burden to my team, I'm a burden to my doubles partner as well. Sometimes, I rather no one partners me. Perhaps, I will feel better this way. My partner trained so hard, yet partner me, got to lose that match. Was it a wrong choice to actually join this team? This feeling sucks. When you're really lousy & all you can say is "sorry" to your teammates & nothing else. Sometimes I really wonder, why am I so lousy. & I got those reasons. Firstly, I never train hard. All I do is to whine & whine & whine. To e frank, I ain't a role model fr my juniors at all. In fact, I think I don't even deserve any rights to scold them as well. Having such a lousy senior ain't something to be proud of. Not to mention, a lousy player in th team. I'm really tired. Tired of being a burden. Tired of causing th team to lose. Tired of demoralizing th team. Tired of being lousy. I'm tired of everything. Sigh. I really don't know who to talk to, don't know how to talk about it. Nobody will understand how I feel right now. All I can say is, "I'm sorry, Bowen badminton team."

I'm fine.

Falling in love > giving up. What's new? Okay. That's besides th point. Th point now is, I'm feeling better after letting everything out. Even though th answer ain't th answer I wished to hear, but that answer was an expected one. So I'm alr prepared. (:

I'm fine. All I need is time & time indeed heals everything. It's kinda sad but there's nothing I can do right? Loving one doesn't mean that you two must be together. As long as he's happy, you're happy as well.

Training fr this week were fine. Just that I still miss my badminton camp. Terribly missing it. People got lovesick, I got campsick. Next week, there won't be any trainings as our teachers & coaches would be going overseas. Therefore, I can finally have a 1 week break. & I think I can only enjoy next week because th following week, 17th December would be th release of N's results.

N's results? I'm really worried. What if I don't get th results I expected? What if I disappoint my parents? What if I disappoint my teachers? What if I disappoint my coaches? What if I disappoint my teammates? Sigh. This feeling, is just too hard to explain. It's kinda stress.

There are really some people whom I really appreciate their presence in my life. Firstly, that's of cause my family members that includes my mummy, daddy, grandparents, aunts & uncles. They're always there supporting & cheering me. They never fails to bring a smile on my face.

Next, Bowen badminton team. A team that is filled with laughter as well as noise. Although we might dislike one another in th team, but when it comes to right time, we will definitely bond together as one. We might not be th best, but we're definitely training our best.

Friends. I would like to thank Durene, Chengyi, JiaJie, Ashly fr making such an adorable B division 2011. Th experience I had with them, will stays in my heart.

I would like to thank my juniors, Jolenta, Xinhui, Mandy, XiaoHan, YeeLu, KaiYun, JinWen, Venus & Sheryl fr making th girls team a wonderful one too.

Not forgetting my very own classmates & friends. Danise, Irene, Brandon Liew, Shermaine, BoonFu, Kelvin Ng, Darrell, Shawn, Raynald, Samuel, Melvin, Camily, Megan, Crayson, Richelle, Germaine, ZheXuen, ZhiTing & more. They are irreplaceable. They plays a part to my life in Bowen Secondary & I'll never forget that.

My 2012's journey.

November ended & December's here. Let's throw away all those sorrows in November & start anew in December.

True friends? Who are our true friends? What exactly are true friends? Definition of true friends : Always there for you whenever you need there. There even when you're at your lowest point in life. Making you feel wanted & not by leaving you aside feeling lonely. Loving you for who you are & not got who you are not.

Since 2012's ending, I shall just dedicate this post to some special people. & if you're mentioned here, you got to be damn special & you should feel honored.

Firstly, I'm gonna talk about my badminton team. This team, Bowen badminton team, a team filled with lovable, encouraging, noisy, crazy teammates. In order for us to win our zonals & nationals, there's 4 things we need. They are effort, time, sweat & tears. I would like to thank my coach, Mr Izwan for putting in so much effort & time into this team. It ain't easy to handle this team by himself. It's a big team. He would be leaving Bowen badminton together with Miss Mak & Miss Lee. Me Izwan would be leaving for Singapore Sports School, Miss Lee would be leaving for St. Gabriel's & Miss Mak would furthering her studies @ NIE & be a teacher in for primary school. I got to apologize to this team for being a burden to the team, coaches, teachers, teammates & of cause my doubles partner. I'm sorry for whoever that partners me. I'm always a burden by causing you to lose the match. Thank you Mr Izwan, Miss Chia, Mr Sim, Miss Lee & Miss Mak for putting in so much effort & time to make sure we improve. To be honest, I really enjoyed this year's Bowen Badminton Camp 2012. I can really see the effort put in by the captains, vice-captains as well as teachers. It ain't easy to plan a camp, not to mention, handling the team too. Although it was really tired during the camp, but when you see your teammates enjoying themselves in the camp, you would think that the tiredness are really worthwhile. I can really see that the team enjoyed the camp. They became enthusiastic when it coming up with cheers, items to perform as well as the farewell. Everyone enjoyed it. Especially th 2nd night. When everyone got high & started dancing & singing. We hardly get any time to bond & enjoy ourselves except for OLJs as well as camps. Everyone laugh their hearts out. I'm really thankful for this team, for having caring teachers, coaches & teammates as well. Thank you Bowen Badminton Team for making my journey in Bowen Secondary a really meaningful & memorable one. I really love BOWEN BADMINTON TEAM even thought I always whine & complain about physicals.

Durene Toh Man Qin ;
Someone whom I've never thought would be so important to me. I got to admit, we weren't close during Secondary 1. After joining Bowen Badminton, we started to be close. Slowly slowly, our friendship from stranger to friend, from friend to normal friend, from normal friend to good friend & from good friend to when we two are now. Our friendship journey ain't easy as you guys think. There's a lot of arguments as well as disputes for the past few years. But that never break our friendship. Instead, we took that as a challenge. We overcome that challenge & rewarded ourselves with a stronger friendship. This kind of friendship, ain't easy to find, not to mention, ain't easy to maintain as well. All the things she had done for me, really meant a lot to me. Thank you for making my journey in Bowen secondary a really good & memorable one. I'm really thankful for her & I'll definitely cherished this friendship & not taking it for granted. She may be sarcastic, so what? I'm sarcastic as well. With her, I can really be myself, or even not myself (when I got even crazier). She's definitely physically & mentally stronger than me. She's able to managed all the situations calmly without breaking down. Apparently, some might think that we two are lesbians but I'm sure we're not. We're the best of friends.

Tang Cheng Yi ;
This loudhailer, together with me = 2 loud speaker. She's a really nice & approachable senior who never fails to make me laugh & cry. There's definitely happy moments with her as well as sad moments. Besides being my senior, she's my doubles partner as well. That makes me even more pressurize. Laughing issues : when we actually talk bad things about her & she takes about 10s to actually figure out what we're talking & start making all those funny noise. Her way of using fork to scold people. Her laughter ( Mr Lim's definition : Heart attack). & of cause, her cheerfulness. As for the sad part, that's of cause my problem. Partnering her, only give her more problems & burden as well. I'm always the one that caused our points to fly to opponent's side. I got to really apologize to her for losing the two major competitions, this year's as well a last year's. Even though she never blamed me, but deep down I know, I'm forever the one bringing the team down. Bringing her down. Being a burden to the team. I'm really sorry. But I'm thankful for her presence. She's really someone important to me.

Lee Jia Jie ;
This crazy. Oh wait, should be clumsy JJ. Haha. She's the best senior. Ever since I got into this team, the first senior I became close with was her. I remembered calling her every night & talk for hours. I really miss that. & when I went up to Secondary 2, we started drifting as well. But year end, we started being real close again. We would definitely meet each other in the morning & start chit chatting. Ever since she graduated, I simply miss her. Cause there's no one for me to bicker with. Haha. Felt really comfortable with her as well. Someone whom I can be trusted. We are of the same size, same height. Haha. We call each other fat because we're really fat & we got to admit that. Simply love her & all the memories she had given me.

Tan Rou Ying, Ashly ;
She's a really nice & sweet girl. She's my captain for my batch & she really took good care of us. She's very pretty & cute. Never fails to make my day as well. She's really lovable & she's also someone whom I can talk to. She never fails to encourage me whenever I'm feeling down. She's there for me whenever I need support. I really appreciate her. But the sad thing is that she would be leaving Bowen this year. I'm gonna miss her. Sigh. Came into together, yet she's leaving first. Thank you for all the memories you had given me. Especially during OLJs, trainings as well as camps. Remember to come back & visit us when you're free alright! Love you!

Shawn Ho Jun Hong ;
This guy, a really nice guy. Someone whom I can talk to too. He's the first guy I liked in secondary school. He never fails to cheer me up whenever I'm sad & he never fails to make my day as well. I'm really thankful for him. Really appreciate him. He can study one, just that he's lazy to study. & I think he already made his decision already. So I'm gonna wish him all the best after leaving Bowen & remember to come back & play & do keep in contact. He's a guy that can just make everyone around him happy. Just one thing about him, very easily agitated! Hmmm! But other than that, he's really nice.

; The rest to be updated tomorrow.