Nothing but a burden.

Well, I'm feeling rather mood-less. Well, to start off, it's related to my cca. So I shall start thn. I've always been a burden to my team. I've never contributed anything to this team ever since I joined badminton. Not only I'm a burden to my team, I'm a burden to my doubles partner as well. Sometimes, I rather no one partners me. Perhaps, I will feel better this way. My partner trained so hard, yet partner me, got to lose that match. Was it a wrong choice to actually join this team? This feeling sucks. When you're really lousy & all you can say is "sorry" to your teammates & nothing else. Sometimes I really wonder, why am I so lousy. & I got those reasons. Firstly, I never train hard. All I do is to whine & whine & whine. To e frank, I ain't a role model fr my juniors at all. In fact, I think I don't even deserve any rights to scold them as well. Having such a lousy senior ain't something to be proud of. Not to mention, a lousy player in th team. I'm really tired. Tired of being a burden. Tired of causing th team to lose. Tired of demoralizing th team. Tired of being lousy. I'm tired of everything. Sigh. I really don't know who to talk to, don't know how to talk about it. Nobody will understand how I feel right now. All I can say is, "I'm sorry, Bowen badminton team."