It's the last day of November, which also means 2013 is nearing. Well, I really enjoyed myself this month. Be it birthday celebration, Gardens by the bay, Singapore Flyer, Bowen Badminton Overseas Learning journey to Bangkok, Thailand, Bowen Badminton Annual Camp 2012 & Mr Goh's wedding. I really had lots of memories & fun in this month. All this experiences just can't seem to be described using words. They will be kept deeply in my heart yeah. All those memories with Bowen Badminton have been a really good one. All this 4 years in this team, I really appreciate everyone's presence yeah. Why do my this post sound so moody uh? I think partly because of my fear for results plus I'm just kinda emotional though. I'm just afraid that I can't make it back to Sec 5, that I will disappoint my teachers, parents as well as my friends. That feeling basically sucks. But there's nothing I can do. All I can do now is to pray to the God & just wait for my results. Whatever it is, it's just my fate. I just got to learn to accept the fact yeah. I just don't understand myself as well. I don't know how to describe the feeling but it's quite sour though. That worst feeling when you actually want to cry but don't know how to. To be frank, I've always wondered why am I a burden to everyone. Burden to the team, burden to my double partners, burden to my friends, burden to teachers & burden to parents. That feeling basically sucks. Knowing how lousy you are, yet you just can't do anything to actually stop it. I've never played a good role as a senior. I break down as & when I like. Showed bad examples to my juniors. Instead of me cheering them up, it became the opposite. Instead, they got to cheer me up just because I'm lousy. Sigh.
Like? Love? Perhaps I really mistaken but it's alright. Everything takes time yeah. So do I. All I need is time & stop being so boy crazy uh. When can I have a really sweet & long relationship with a guy I really like? Why does it seems so difficult? Whereas fr others, it looks so easy. Tired alr. Really very tired alr. Tired of getting jealous. Tired of trying. Tired of liking. Tired of everything.
My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.
Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.
I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.
Friday, November 30, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Life.
People leave, people stay. People care, people ignore. People love, people hate. But they do make a big impact in our life. All those promises are bullshits. All those promises are lies. Because I can't see to trust anymore of your words. It was really dumb. Oh well, not only you. Because I encounter another one too. But well, that's th history. From now on, you live your life & I live mind. You don't have to care about me, anything I do. Don't bother. Funny how words can change everyone's mood. But yes, I'll remember your words. Those lies that made me even stronger. Thank you very much. I've learnt to be stronger, less emotional & of cos, I ain't gonna fall in love. Friends & family are my important ones.
Words can never describe how one feels. Soon, everything would start anew. Everything would be history or even non-existence. & hardly, we can find anyway who is true to us. HARDLY.
Words can never describe how one feels. Soon, everything would start anew. Everything would be history or even non-existence. & hardly, we can find anyway who is true to us. HARDLY.
16.
Yes. I'm officially 16. & I got to really thank my friends & family fr celebrating my birthday. It was really memorable indeed. Simply love them.
12th November 2012 :
Met my lovelies @ AMKHub to catch "Ah boys to men" that movie. JJ & I couldn't make it on time & we were late. Didn't expect anything after we bought our tickets but I was really shocked when I see th cookie. It was really nicely decorated. Simply love it. & we rush into th theatre to watch th show. Th show is really nice & touching too. After th movie, CY got to rush home & we took one Polaroid together & she went home. JJ & D started blaming me, saying why didn't I bring another box of film blablabla. Make me guilty much can! ;( after that, bought a hello kitty film & off we go to subway. Took pictures & indeed, a really fun & memorable day.
13th November 2012 :
Went to Gardens by the bay (GBTB) with my family & took pictures. Not long after, it started to rain heavily. So we visited the "Flower Dome". & there's really many pretty flowers. I've captured some & I'll share it with you guys later. (: Polaroid with family & we moved on to the "Cloud Forest". It was really cold when we stepped in as there's a waterfall down there. After that, we walked round the place & yes, we've tried the cloud walk & of cos, taking pictures with family. Soon, th sky is getting dark. We make our way out & waited for the night show to begin whereby they will on th lights & make it really beautiful. After that, we head down to flyer & had our dinner. Had stingray, oyster egg, bah kut teh & hokkien mee with green tea. Yumz! Made our way up to th flyer & took many pictures. I swear th ride is really scary. Okay, maybe because I'm afraid of heights, that's why. After that, we're finally done fr th day & we headed back home.
14th November 2012 :
Th clock strikes 12 & my friends started wishing me on twitter, Facebook, message & even INSTAGRAM. Haha. Really appreciate those long messages I've received from my loved ones. I went to bed & woke up early to help Miss Chia fr th OLJ items. Before making my trip down to school, D made her trip down to my house just to pass me my birthday gift. Really appreciate it! After that, I walked to HG1 to buy my breakfast & headed to school to help Miss Chia fr th OLJ items. After that, we helped her with her Chinese showcase. It was a really fun day with my juniors & Miss Chia yeah. Filled with laughter. DS made her way down to school just to pass me my present too! Really appreciate it! After that, bused down to compass point to meet D fr lunch. After lunch, hanged around @ popular & bought my post its. A came over to compass just fr phewtick. Haha. Thanks A! After that, my family & I had dinner @ Canton Paradise @ compass point. Th food was really nice & attractive. But I don't have th appetite to eat that. Before I start eating, S gave me a call & I went out. He passed me my birthday present. Thanks S! After dinner, we headed home. I really got to thank my friends & family fr making my sweet 16 a really memorable one. Love you guys!
12th November 2012 :
Met my lovelies @ AMKHub to catch "Ah boys to men" that movie. JJ & I couldn't make it on time & we were late. Didn't expect anything after we bought our tickets but I was really shocked when I see th cookie. It was really nicely decorated. Simply love it. & we rush into th theatre to watch th show. Th show is really nice & touching too. After th movie, CY got to rush home & we took one Polaroid together & she went home. JJ & D started blaming me, saying why didn't I bring another box of film blablabla. Make me guilty much can! ;( after that, bought a hello kitty film & off we go to subway. Took pictures & indeed, a really fun & memorable day.
13th November 2012 :
Went to Gardens by the bay (GBTB) with my family & took pictures. Not long after, it started to rain heavily. So we visited the "Flower Dome". & there's really many pretty flowers. I've captured some & I'll share it with you guys later. (: Polaroid with family & we moved on to the "Cloud Forest". It was really cold when we stepped in as there's a waterfall down there. After that, we walked round the place & yes, we've tried the cloud walk & of cos, taking pictures with family. Soon, th sky is getting dark. We make our way out & waited for the night show to begin whereby they will on th lights & make it really beautiful. After that, we head down to flyer & had our dinner. Had stingray, oyster egg, bah kut teh & hokkien mee with green tea. Yumz! Made our way up to th flyer & took many pictures. I swear th ride is really scary. Okay, maybe because I'm afraid of heights, that's why. After that, we're finally done fr th day & we headed back home.
14th November 2012 :
Th clock strikes 12 & my friends started wishing me on twitter, Facebook, message & even INSTAGRAM. Haha. Really appreciate those long messages I've received from my loved ones. I went to bed & woke up early to help Miss Chia fr th OLJ items. Before making my trip down to school, D made her trip down to my house just to pass me my birthday gift. Really appreciate it! After that, I walked to HG1 to buy my breakfast & headed to school to help Miss Chia fr th OLJ items. After that, we helped her with her Chinese showcase. It was a really fun day with my juniors & Miss Chia yeah. Filled with laughter. DS made her way down to school just to pass me my present too! Really appreciate it! After that, bused down to compass point to meet D fr lunch. After lunch, hanged around @ popular & bought my post its. A came over to compass just fr phewtick. Haha. Thanks A! After that, my family & I had dinner @ Canton Paradise @ compass point. Th food was really nice & attractive. But I don't have th appetite to eat that. Before I start eating, S gave me a call & I went out. He passed me my birthday present. Thanks S! After dinner, we headed home. I really got to thank my friends & family fr making my sweet 16 a really memorable one. Love you guys!
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