Well, many things had happened & I came to realize that afterall, you should just trust & rely on yourself or else you will end up getting hurt.
The changes are really scary & I wished nothing had changed. The feeling is no longer the same. I've always thought we were all close but I doubt so. The definition of close "when you can tell them everything & be yourself without being judged." Therefore, I asked myself if that's considered as close friend.
Sometimes I asked myself this question " If I treat him/her as my close friend, will I be treated the same way by him/her?" The feeling I got is really different. It feels like you're the only one giving. It gets tiring as time passes. All I received were all disappointments. Therefore, I've decided not to expect anything for anyone or else, I will end up getting disappointed.
Throughout this holiday, I got really closer with my NYP Badminton teammates. Be it during camp or normal training, I felt really comfortable whenever I'm with them. They are the ones whom I would really cherish during my 4 years in Poly. Talking about the camp, I really enjoyed myself during the 3D2N camp with the Pandas. I am really looking forward for more activities for the pandas. Oh yes! Polite coming & we've to train really hard! :)
Countdown : 23 days
To be honest, be it in Bowen Badminton or NYP Badminton, I felt that my teammates are like my family. We're one big family. I definitely appreciate the bond I had with all of them. :)
Studies studies. Well, results were released 4 days ago. Happy that I passed all papers but not really please because I did not really put in my 100% effort into it. Therefore, I tell myself that Semester 2, I'll study really hard. Not like now.
