A scary thought.

Ever had this feeling? Or should I say, negative feeling? Th feeling basically sucks. It's like out of th blue, I will feel damn stress, but yesterday, I can say is a more serious one. I immediately break down when I think of th stress. I think & think & think, what if I end up in ITE? My father's gonna stop me from schooling, & basically, I will be wasting my parents money. But th problem is that, th life ain't easy at all. All th things, you are just coping by yourself. I remembered telling my mum I'm very stress, and I don't feel like studying. She told me, they are not th one forcing me to study, but th competitive society is. With a diploma or a degree, you can forget about having jobs. I always want to do well fr my studies but whenever I try, I just can't. It's like th stress piling up real high like a mountain. But, it's only th 1st month fr 2012, a new year, and I'm already like this. What more 7 months later fr my N's. I just hope I can stay focus & not disappoint anyone, most importantly, me.

Fate let us meet & it's our will if to continue it.

Third post fr 2012. Current blogging @ Durene's house. (: Thanks Durene fr editing my photo huh! Very nice! :D Well, it has been th fourth week of school and I'm alr stressing alr. Like as if my N's tomorrow like that. Sigh.. I just miss lower sec life, like seriously. Those times, when we copy homework every morning before school starts and th way we never really take things seriously. If I had a chance, I would want to turn back th clock & go back to those times. If I could, I would rather turn th clock back as a baby. Carefree life with no stress and no things to worry. But it's kinda impossible to turn back th clock alr. So well, I should just cherish my secondary school life with my secondary school friends before seperating with them. I sort of live with regrets as I did not really cherish my time with my primary school friends. But well, like what Mdm Tee say, th one that will follow you through would be your secondary school friends, family, JCs/Polys friends & colleagues will be th one following you through fr your whole life. As expected, really drifted from my primary school friends. They have their own friends & I have my own too. & thus, we seldom keep in contact alr.

Primary School memories.

• Close like sisters like that.
• Swimming sessions with th school
• P5 camp (2007)
• Kayaking camp (2008)
• Excursion to science centre, Bukit Timah and many more.
• "I friend you, I don't friend you alr."
• "Oh, so you're friends with her? I don't friend you alr."
• All th childish quarrel & fightings

Secondary School memories.

• Friends that go through hardships with you.
• Overseas Learning Journey with Bowen Badminton. (Kuala Lumpur & Chengdu)
• Misunderstandings.
• Study together.
• Laugh, cry & endure hardships together.

Sec 4 life is seriously no joke. No time to actually slack & like what Mrs Ang says, I really lack of time management. I seriously need to learn to manage my time properly.

Badminton

North Zone is starting in another 4 days time which is damn fast. Bowen Badminton are not scared/nervous, we are excited! :D First round will be meeting Compassvale Secondary School, CHIJ St Joseph's Convent and Admiralty Secondary School. Fr bowenians, do come & support us if you're free yeah! We will appreciate your support! :D

Words are just to strong to be said. So please think before you say.

"Old pictures, old memories."

Well, second post of th year yeah. (: It's page 21 of 366. There's many things I would like to rant it here. Many many things. This week was quite alright & Chinese New Year celebration was nice. But just that I don't really like th Emcee. Is like one of th emcee damn GL youmeiyou. Even after th celebration, went to Hougang mall with Durene & Chengyi. Took bus 147, Durene & I used coins to pay fr th ride, and all th anger starts from here. That Gl bus driver, I don't know how to describe this guy man. Like seriously. By right, when you put in th coins, they should issue you th ticket but apparently, he did not. So Durene asked him, why you never issue us th tickets, guess what he say. He said what, he want to see our student pass to make sure that we're students. If not we gotta pay twice th amount. So Durene very pekchek, show him her student pass. Thn th bus driver say, I cannot see your picture. Thn Durene say, my face ugly what, that's why paste sticker on it. After that, she got her ticket, I did not have mine. But who cares. -.- Not only this, it was a double decker bus. So we went up to th upper deck, was climbing up th stairs & he purposely break & drive until like want make us fall like that. DAMN PURPOSELY. So we went up to th back of th bus & started talking damn loudly. Th next stop, Adrian & his group of friends got up. So they sit @ th back of th bus too. So we all GL, talk damn loud. So finally, we reached our destination, normally you get down by th back of th door isn't it? Yes, so we waited fr th back door to open, he purposely don't want open th door fr us. Nice one huh. I'm very sure I will lodge a complain about it uhh. Take care of yourself huh.

Hougang mall trip with girls were fun!<3 ^^ Took lots of silly & epic pictures. It doesn't have to look nice, but in our hearts, it's just too perfect fr any other comments. (: Wanna take a look @ th pictures? HAHA. Not today. :P So let's talk more on my reunion dinner.

Went back home & bathe. Followed mummy to Nex to buy vouchers but ended up, there ain't anymore vouchers. So we took bus to Hougang Point & mummy went to buy "Suan". (: So she went back home to put th stuff & I walked back to my grandma house. Around 6 plus, we started to prepare th tables & chairs, rice, food & steamboat. Boiled th soup & TADA!! :D Ready fr steamboat! :D So we tuck in. Sat with cousins & we started to chit chat. (: & soon, that ruins my mood. Let's discuss about being fat. (:

Fat.

Yes, I know I'm fat. I love to eat food & that is th reason why I'm this size. I know it myself, but do you have to constantly tell me about it. You don't have to. You may think it's a joke, or should I say, it's fr my own good? Yes, I know it's fr my own good. But you don't know that you're actually saying things that will hurt others. I really don't know how to explain. But well, I guess one day I should just keep myself away from food. Best of th best. Don't eat & there won't be any comments alr. I've really made a decision. Everything I eat, I EAT HALF. Whatever laa. I know my size, sigh... It's alright.

Well, north-zone is just 10 more days away. Which is damn fast isn't it. But well, I shall refrain myself from eating too much chinese new year goodies yeah. I'm damn damn excited to go bainian with my friends you mei you!<3 Haha. & 4th Feb, we will be going Mr Lim house bainian! So looking forward yeah & most importantly, bring camera & camwhore madness, HERE I COME! :D hehe. But th saddest thing is that, after chinese new year, gotta really stress myself with studies & badminton alr. Comeon' Cheryl! You can do it. You've come too far to give up & so, instead of giving up, you should persevere on. This is what th Bowen Badminton spirit ask you to do.

& I hereby wish all my readers a HAPPY ADVANCED CHINESE NEW YEAR!<3 Enjoy your time with your relatives yeah. :D Catch up with them too! But I guess mine would be, aiyo, why you become fatter alr? Blablabla. So be it, th sentence is just too normal fr me alr. Soon, I'll feel nothing about that sentence anymore.

Page 14 of 366.

Hoho. First post fr 2012. Hehe. Page 14 of 366. I went to see a doctor early in th morning, myself. Due to th fact that my ear is pain, so I went to see doctor. Mummy told me that polyclinic would be very crowded, but ended up, not so crowded laa. (: hehe. Went in to see doctor & doctor said that it's ear infection. & yes, it's damn pain. :O Sigh... Anyway, let's talk about happy things. 2 weeks of school, study mood come back alr. That's good Cheryl! Keep it up! :D Hehe. Okay. Chinese New Year is coming in another 2 weeks time. I'm so so excited! ^^ Tempted to wear my new clothes & heels! (Y) Gonna be an exciting day out with family, friends & teammates! <3 Hehe. Okay, north zone is approaching soon alr uhh. Time to focus & stop thinking of other things. (: This year ain't a joke man. Seriously. So it's time I stay focus & not to lose focus @ all. STAY FOCUS CHERYL! ^^

Shall dedicate something to him. (:

Haha. He is a really nice & cute friend uhh! Haha. Got something to say to you though. Although you lost your match against Christ Church, but cheer up okay! I know is easy to say yet difficult to do. But, there's definitely a win & a lose in every match. Learn what you have done wrong & improve in it. (: Hehe. Jiayou & train hard in future yeah! He's a really nice friend! :D So I hereby announced his my best friend! ^^ hehe. All th best fr your Sec 3 life yeah! :D Seeyah back in school on Monday! ;>

BowenBadminton.

BowenBadminton! North Zone fr girls would be on th 31st January 2012, as fr th boys, it would be on th 1st of February 2012. Let's all prove to others that we are th best & we show them what we are after all th trainings we had yeah. Out school motto ; "I believe, therefore I am." We are one big time! (Y) Hehe. ^^ -wink- GAMBATTE BOWEN BADMINTON! :D

Xoxo,

Cheryl Lor.<3