I need to really get my mood back to studying. I can't afford to waste anytime anymore. There's no more time to waste.
My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.
Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.
I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Another week had past.
Well, another week has simply past. Time flies yah. Just another 3 more weeks to prelims. Oh dear. & yes, I rebonded my yesterday.
I need to really get my mood back to studying. I can't afford to waste anytime anymore. There's no more time to waste.
I need to really get my mood back to studying. I can't afford to waste anytime anymore. There's no more time to waste.
Monday, July 2, 2012
Smiles, laughters, tears.
Sometimes, we often take things fr granted. We only start regretting when things & people start leaving you. I have to admit, th problem always lies with me. Be it friendship, relationship or everything else. I always think that th problem lies with them & not me. But as time passes, I got th answer. It was all me. I gave people false hope, I ignored them, I hurt them. & I'm really sorry. I know, no matter how many sorrys I say, it can't change anything. I rather they hate me, thn to treat me as their good friend. As fr friends, yes, I have to admit, sometimes I took them fr granted too. I ignored their concern & feelings.
This feeling is just too terrible. 63 more days to N's. & what am I doing now? Thinking about all this, having no motivation to actually study. I'm really getting bad to worse. I really miss that hardworking Cheryl. Ever since 2012 started, I felt that I hadn't been myself. Being lazy? But not to this extent. Not paying attention in class? Getting worse. Why must all this happen on th year when I'm taking my national exams? I really don't want to disappoint my parents, my teachers & dearest friends whom really have faith in me.
Friends? Everything getting so tough. & I'm getting tired too. Easily affected by others, that's really tiring.
This feeling is just too terrible. 63 more days to N's. & what am I doing now? Thinking about all this, having no motivation to actually study. I'm really getting bad to worse. I really miss that hardworking Cheryl. Ever since 2012 started, I felt that I hadn't been myself. Being lazy? But not to this extent. Not paying attention in class? Getting worse. Why must all this happen on th year when I'm taking my national exams? I really don't want to disappoint my parents, my teachers & dearest friends whom really have faith in me.
Friends? Everything getting so tough. & I'm getting tired too. Easily affected by others, that's really tiring.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Something which you will never know,
Another mistake which I had made. After knowing all this, I kind of hate myself even more. Somehow, I just feel that I'm only hurting the people around me. Just because of my selfishness. It sucks. That feeling sucks too. All along, I have been mistaken. My attitude towards everything were wrong. From today onwards, I should start changing my mentality as well as my character. I should stop being so talkative in class, stop being a nuisance.
1 week had past. I've learnt something from that week.
1 week had past. I've learnt something from that week.
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