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My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.

Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.

I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.



Sunday, February 26, 2012

Badminton's. My choice, my life, my happiness.

Well, it's Sunday. & yes, tomorrow's Monday, AGAIN. Well, should be getting back most of th papers tomorrow. All I'm wishing fr fr this common test 1 results is to at least a pass. I really miss my life in sec1, 2 & 3. I really regretted not enjoying myself at that time & now, th stress's just keep piling piling. It sucks real badly. Th feeling is awful too.

Badminton.
If you guys were to ask me whether have I regretted joining Bowen Badminton Team, I would reply, no, never in my life. Right from th start, I joined badminton to lose weight. But as time passes, it doesn't matter anymore. After going through 3 years, 2 months of training, I came to realized, losing weight ain't that important anymore. I came to realize, my teammates are the one that accompany me throughout th journey in Bowen. They made a really big impact in my life. Though there's always misunderstandings between th girls, but we will talk things out & yeah, we will thn be back to th aggressive team of girls. Winning & losing really doesn't matter. But what matters most is, who are th one that really cheer their lungs out fr you when they can see that you're going to give up. Th moment we go into th court, we shouldn't have a mindset that, "Oh, confirm lose one. This team so strong." That's besides th point. We go in as fighters, come out as fighter as well. We mustn't let others think that, OH, Bowen Badminton uh? They get top 4? Haha. Because they lucky only mahhs. THAT'S NOT TH CASE. We get top 4 because we wants it more thn anyone else do. We ain't lucky, it's because we know, we train so hard not to lose. We train so hard to show others, how much we, Bowen Badminton Team wants th Top4. It's never an easy job to get top 4. It ain't individual work too. It's a team effort. Be it in th court or outside th court, remember 1 thing, we are in th same team. When our teammates are playing, we should give them moral support and let them know, we're always there fr them & not by pushing th blames. Bowen Badminton girls are aggressive & why? It's because we wants it, we definitely know it ain't gonna be an easy route. Being aggressive will thus allow th opponent to know, we ain't any losers. We fight fr what we want. Be it in court fighting or outside cheering. This is why I'm proud to be in this CCA. We've come too far & yes, we achieved our common goal. But that's besides th point. Th reason why we can get it is because, we support one another and we play as a team, cheer as a team. We shout like cheerleader, play like fighter.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

I wish life could be as easy as ABC.

Weather : Breezy night.
Mood : Happy, yet sad.

First of all, congratulations to all C & B div boys & B girls of Bowen Badminton Team! WE had achieved what we are supposed to achieve alr. Top 4 in North Zone. They played their finals & they got 4th fr both division. B boys lost to Maris Stella, 2-3, C boys lost to monfort, 2-3. But I guess, they played their very best alr uhh. & fr th girls, our semi-final will be on tuesday with Singapore Sports School & final would be St Nicholas Girls' School fr 3rd & 4th placing. Enough said of badminton. Let's talk about results.

1 week after th common test. Guess what? It simply ruin my whole year. Started th year with such results? How am I going to continue fr mid-year, prelims & N's? Well, whatever. I must work my ass off fr my studies alr. No matter what, I must & I will get good results fr my parents to see.

I guess, it's just to stressful yeah. Without diploma, you can forget about working. Forget about everything. But well, let's just take a step at a time yeah. No point thinking so far yeah.

Friday, February 17, 2012

#52 : Thoughts comes when you're alone.

Well, now I'm having training & using phone to blog. Now, th weather describes best my feeling now.
Weather : Rainy days.
Mood : Pissed, sad.
Shall get to th point. I simply hates it when people hate/dislike me, they act like they don't infront of me, but behind my back, they do. Things have change. It's no longer in th past. My fault? Yaya. Forget it. Alone ain't a bad thing isn't it? We learn to be independent & stuff. Same batch people hates me, seniors hates me, juniors hates me. Continue hating yoh. No matter what, I can't hate myself. Now I understand th feeling meilin undergoes. She undergo a really terrible experience. A lousy player, a suckish attitude. Meilin, I TRULY UNDERSTAND YOUR FEELING.

It's okay to let me know. But by refusing, it proves that you hate me to th max. Because that's th worst thing ever. Life goes on isn't it? We can't stop people from hating us.

Alone let us learn how to be independent. But yet, letting us think a lot. Well, Cheryl, you don't have to care what people thinks about you, you just have to be yourself. We ain't born to please everyone.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

#51 ; My type of boyfr.

Well, another week had past. It's Saturday now. (: Hoho. Well, this week, a pretty stressful week I suppose. SS test, North Zone and trainings. But I'm really gonna make all this worthwhile. Well, sometimes, I guess I'm just too emotional & I simply hates it yeah. Well, enough of saying all this.

I guess you did not change at all. Well, I thought my feelings fr your would fade, but I guess it's still clinging over there but I could say, I really give up. Or should I say, I gave up on you, just that when I see you, th feelings are still there? But whatever it is. What's past is past. No point thinking about us in th past. Simply, N.O P.O.I.N.T. (:

MY TYPE OF BOYFRIEND :
- Understanding.
- Reasonable.
- Able to cheer me up when I'm down.
- Able to differentiate when I'm serious & when I'm joking.
- Able to give in & not always expecting girls to give in to them.
- Gives me a secure feeling.
- Makes me feel that he wants me.
- Trust me.
- No assumptions.
- Avoid misunderstandings.
- Know everything about me.
- Treat me like how he wants his daddy to treat his mummy.
- Able to take my tantrums.
- Understands how I feel.
- Know what exactly I want.

There's simply too many things to list down. & well, it's never a time fr all this @ this period of time. What I should do now is to concentrate on my North Zone & N level. Nothing more, nothing less.

Love is between me & you. Not you & her.