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My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.

Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.

I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.



Saturday, October 13, 2012

Childhood memories / "Be who you are, not who they define you as."

As years passes, things changes as well. When I was really young, I lived with my maternal grandparents and my mum. My dad will visit us everyday after his work. My favorite memory with my maternal grandpa was that every morning, he will definitely bring me down to walk walk. & yes, at that time, I love mimosa a lot. (Haha. Now I love them too) & as I was young, I just translate "害羞草" to "Shy grass" & "鳕鱼" to "Blood fish". At that time, I was really close to my grandparents until th extent when my grandfather is going to work, I will start crying non stop. Terrible. I love my grandparents. I love to see their smile because it simply makes my day. Apparently, I love everyone that actually loves me deeply. Up till now, even though I never live with my grandparents anymore, but I will still visit them once a week. & I told myself. I must study hard to give both my maternal & paternal grandparents a good life because they really took good care of me when I was young. My paternal grandma never fails to cook my broccoli dish everytime I visit her on sunday. & sometimes, she will cook my favorite soup too! Watercress soup. & paternal grandpa said that when I start working, I should really take good care of my paternal grandma as she never fails to cook my favorite dish. I said, I will. No worries. When I was in kindergarten, I can't wait to go home & I can't wait to go to school because at that time, everything was really peaceful & happy. But as years passes, I realized, life ain't that easy as what I thought when I was young. Slowly slowly, it starts to be really realistic. Everyone judges. I admit. I do judge too. I judge myself as well. Yes, I'm fat. Yes, I'm short. Yes, I'm lousy. Yes, I'm lazy. Yes, I'm everything bad you can name it. But well, what matters ain't what others think about you, is what you think about yourself. If you ain't confident about yourself, what makes you think others will be confident in you? Therefore, even if others think that we're fat, short, lousy, lazy / whatever they can name it, what's more important is how we look at ourselves. It's okay if no one love us. Th main thing is that we got to love ourselves. Be who you are, not who they define you as.


14th October 2012, 2:20PM, rainy day.
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