Sometimes, we often take things fr granted. We only start regretting when things & people start leaving you. I have to admit, th problem always lies with me. Be it friendship, relationship or everything else. I always think that th problem lies with them & not me. But as time passes, I got th answer. It was all me. I gave people false hope, I ignored them, I hurt them. & I'm really sorry. I know, no matter how many sorrys I say, it can't change anything. I rather they hate me, thn to treat me as their good friend. As fr friends, yes, I have to admit, sometimes I took them fr granted too. I ignored their concern & feelings.
This feeling is just too terrible. 63 more days to N's. & what am I doing now? Thinking about all this, having no motivation to actually study. I'm really getting bad to worse. I really miss that hardworking Cheryl. Ever since 2012 started, I felt that I hadn't been myself. Being lazy? But not to this extent. Not paying attention in class? Getting worse. Why must all this happen on th year when I'm taking my national exams? I really don't want to disappoint my parents, my teachers & dearest friends whom really have faith in me.
Friends? Everything getting so tough. & I'm getting tired too. Easily affected by others, that's really tiring.
My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.
Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.
I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.
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