Everything starts with my sensitiveness. Everything starts with my attitude, which sums up to be, everything starts with me.
All along, I always want someone whom can really understand me, whom I can really trust. But up till now, I feel that I'm lost. When actually, I find myself pathetic. No friends actually. Primary school's problem, secondary school same problem. Perhaps, I'm fated to meet this kind of problem? I'm really tired. I really don't know what I want. No one seems to care. No one seems to know how I'm feeling right now. Whenever I'm feeling down, I find it so torturing to keep it. I'm really tired. Yah, I'm fake, I'm sensitive, I'm irritating, I'm petty, I don't cherish friends, I neglect friends, I don't give a damn to them. Yah, everyone hates me. So be it. Everything I do, be it good/bad, I'm always being hated. So why not just be myself?
Come to think about it. I'm really missing primary school. Mdm tee will always be there to cheer me up. She told me that secondary school friends are th ones that will really be close & follow you next time. So now what? I have no one. Nobody nobody but me. I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm a bitch.
It doesn't feel good to see your friend become one of your haters.
My name is Cheryl Lor Wan Ning. I started learning since 14November1996. This makes me 17th in year 2013. Living in this biased world. Seeing & hearing stuff that is against me but all I can do is to ignore it. There is always a limit to my patience. Never take things fr granted. There ain't a forever. It's bullshit crap. Up till now, I still can't differentiate between whether you're lying or you're actually telling th truth. It's really tough. After every rainfall, it will be a sunshine. Things come & go without us noticing.
Once a HGPian & now a Bowenian. Once a Chinese Dancer & now a Badminton Player. Bowen Badminton, a team where we stand up as one. Rackets & shuttles? Like me & you.
I didn't say I'm a pretty girl nor I'm a slim girl. To many, to me, Yes, I'm fat. I admit. But that doesn't mean YOU have th right to comment whether I'm fat or not though I know it alr. Don't always speak through mouth. Sometimes, you need to speak through your brain too.
Forgive & Forget ain't easy.
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