Friendship? I've changed. Ever since something happened, I just realise I ain't th old me anymore.
I've changed, my attitude.
I've changed, my personality.
I've changed, to someone that don't even know who she is.
I've changed, to someone that can't even differentiate between truth & false.
I've changed, to someone that is being hated by most people.
I've changed, to someone that people detest. >:
I've changed, to someone that is completely lost in th world.
Yes yes, I'm th only one that changes, no one else do. -.-
I'm tired. It seems like even if I disappear one day, no one's gonna care. & it doesn't really affect anything as no one will notice that one person is gone in this world. I simply can't find someone that I can heart to heart talk to. Someone that can actually understands me very well, know how I'm feeling and what exactly's on my mind. I ain't aftering a boyfr. I just need one friend that can do a job of a boyfr. This two years in secondary school is really an obstacle fr me. Having friendships problem, having many many problems. But no one seems to be able to understand me that well. Not even one. Primary school? Brought to me a lot of th memories. Teachers were there to talk to me whenever I'm sad. But now, I can't even express my sadness. Everybody feels that I'm a noisy girl. I can keep quiet. But I just want to say, I really don't live my life to please you. I do admit I'm fat. That's a truth that I can't deny. But still, I don't understand. Is it a crime to be fat? I have been asking this question fr quite a long time. But it just doesn't seem to bring me to one answer. I have feelings too. I have moodswings, I have negative thoughts & I really hate it. But still, what can I do? I hate it when I'm sad/angry without any reasons at all. I'm a failure.
When can I find that one and only person? 1years time? 10 years time? 20 years time? It isn't th time yet.
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